Javen Says:
There are so many times that i wept thru the nite... so many times that i wept on the way to work... so many times that i wept to sleep... countless of times when i wept and i realli dun know y the tears came trickling...
All i feel is pain and disappointment from so many things over the past few years, that i realli question myself, was it wasted after all these years???
I thought i was always so careful and perfect, meticulous in everything i do, planning and making sure everything will go well, but didn't expect that the thing that i put so much effort into, was the onli thing that failed my expectations...
I'm frustrated and disappointed, w all the contradicting actions and all the sweet nothings whispered to my ears, onli to be crushed when i was told that the status was misunderstood...
Lying thru that eyes unknowingly, just killed my heart... and worst of all.. the peeps that i tot i was close to was actually jus acquaintances??? I was devastated!!!
I went to the temple to pray recently and kept u and ur family in my prayers automaticlaly, den i tot to myself, y should i, when nothing is usually reciprocated from you... then i realise, it always pay to be kind no matter wat..
I hope my prayers will be answered and i hope i have the strength to carry on...
I hope u're reading this and think thru "the amt of efforts" u have put in all these while actually pales out in comparison to that of wad i have afforded...
And to my dear fren who has trust issues... sometimes, trust is not wad u seek in a friendship... it's faith that keeps the friendship going... if one is always so weary of the surroundings, it's hard to open urself and be sociable.. i hope u understand wad i'm typing here and wish u success in discovering the new you...
TC all of you and god bless...
Love..
JJ
